‘But Doctor,’

‘But, Doctor’.

My girl was growing up, life was slowly passing by,
My mind, my constant worrying, wondered why she always cried,
“But Doctor, what is going on, why is my girl so sad?”
“Don’t worry, stop your panicking, I am sure it is nothing bad.”
“Poppycock!” I thought inside, I know something is not quite right,
My girl needs to get some rest from screaming day and night.

My girl wasn’t chatting by the time that she was 3,
Other peoples toddlers were having conversations with me,
“But, Doctor, what is going on, why doesn’t she want to talk?”
“Don’t worry, stop your panicking, she was also late to walk.”
“Balderdash!” I thought inside, I know something is not quite right,
I can’t tell what my girl wants, I can’t leave her out my sight.

My girl would never look at me, I never saw her eyes,
She wouldn’t make eye contact, however hard we tried,
“But, Doctor, what is going on? I think there’s something wrong.”
“Don’t worry, stop your panicking, I have said she is fine all along.”
“What rubbish!” I cried inside, I think she’s got some kind of delay,
Why won’t you listen, it was hard for me to come and tell you this today.

My girl went to a playgroup, but spent her day sat under a table,
She didn’t want to socialise, I don’t know that she was able.
“But Doctor, what is going on? Why won’t my girl go play?”
“Don’t worry, stop your panicking, what do you want me to say?”
“Just listen”, I said out loud, “I know there is something wrong,
Listen to what I have to say, I have been coming for so long.”

“Please Doctor, please just help my girl, I think she needs some tests,
I think my girl has Autism, and mothers always know best.”
“But Mum”, he said, “she is a girl, so Autism is quite rare.”
“Don’t worry, please just help me, don’t just sit there in your chair.”
Thank you, many thank yous when he finally listens to me,
My girl, on the way to diagnosis. I just want someone to agree.

My girl is growing up and got her diagnosis 2 years on,
My mind, even with conflicting advice, agreed with the conclusion drawn.
“But Doctor, you need to remember that parents are mostly right.
We are not panicking when we feel somethings wrong, it’s clearly in our sight.
If someone mentions Autism, listen to what they say,
Help them with a diagnosis, don’t make them feel afraid.

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