Change is something my girl fears the most.
Infact it is a major problem for most people with Autism.
It is a very real fear, a fear of losing control.
If things stay the same, stay predictable, then anxieties are greatly reduced.
Change is what we, as parents, strive for.
Everything we fight for results in change.
In order for our child to grow up in an unpredictable world, we need to introduce change on a daily basis.
It seems crazy to inflict such a difficulty when you know a meltdown will be the result.
Things have to change.
I spend my days spreading Autism Awareness to change peoples perceptions.
Without it, everything would stay the same.
The biggest difficulty is realising that my girl does not cope well with change, but having to do it anyway.
My girl is deeply affected by change.
She becomes very anxious, and lashes out.
Whilst not acceptable, I fully understand her reasons. I am challenging her safe and comfortable world.
The change that bothers my girl the most is the transition from home to school.
A journey from a place she sees as safe and secure, to a loud, stressful, unpredictable environment.
Myself and my husband are starting a big journey.
One that will bring about enormous change. A neccessary change.
We are going to review her school allocation.
Mainstream isn’t working well for her at the moment.
Whilst we are scared of the outcome, it is something we will fight for in hope that, in the long-run, it will be a change worth introducing.
My girl likes the idea but I wonder if she realises what it will really mean.
Time will tell.