Today marks the start of Autism Awareness week.
Whilst I wanted to share a positive story, today has been so difficult, that I can’t.
I can’t tell you that Autism is always a happy place.
I can’t tell you that once you understand Autism that you will understand your child.
I can’t tell you that things get easier.
I can’t because sometimes these things just aren’t true.
What we know is that each person with Autism is different.
Each sharing certain difficulties but being affected in different ways.
No two people are the same….no two days are the same.
We all know the common facts about Autism.
We know diagnosis is on the increase as we understand the condition more.
What the public don’t know is that sometimes Autism is horrible.
Autism can be scary, violent and out of control.
Autism is getting a hundred strategies to work and then the next day they all fail.
Autism is being absolutely exhausted, but staying awake all night.
Autism is the most unpredictable being I have ever encountered.
Autism is craving a hug, but getting a punch.
Wanting to scoop a crying child into your arms, but getting kicked in the head.
Wanting to tell your child that everything is ok, they are safe, but having big blank eyes stare right through you.
If I am honest, somedays I really dislike it.
Somedays, I feel like it has stolen my child.