Broken.

A broken cup……or me? Sitting still, Chaos around me, I’ve gone cold, Inside’s empty, The shouts get louder, I know how it goes, The afterschool meltdown, The whole street knows. Standing still, In view; exposed, I am drained, The door is closed, Meltdown continues, I want to flee, I’m stuck here watching, Please don’t touch…… Continue reading Broken.

Autism, being different is a good thing.

Today was superhero day at school. The children had worked hard to design their own superhero, and today they were able to dress up and become them for a day. This worried my girl greatly. (She hates superheros and tends to favour the more naughty characters!) She had said she wasn’t going to go in…… Continue reading Autism, being different is a good thing.

Birthday Boy. Sibling

“Have you enjoyed your birthday my boy?” “I liked all my presents but not all the….ARGH!!” My girl. My girl is the argh! The shouting, screaming, controlling. The behaviours we expect on someone elses birthday. The everything we don’t want to see. We expect it. We prepare for it. We countdown for birthdays. We buy…… Continue reading Birthday Boy. Sibling

Anxiety and Autism.

Anxiety and Autism seem to go hand in hand. The world is a difficult, and unpredicatable, place to understand. It is a place where there are many rules and regualtions. It is a place where the rules and regulations differ everywhere you go. There is no consistent. Expected behaviour is different for each place you…… Continue reading Anxiety and Autism.

Pre birthday blues.

I wish I could tell her…. That her birthday is nothing to fear, That in the morning it will be here, And the worry she feels will fade away. I wish I could tell her…. As I hear her shout, tears leaking out, That anxiety is not what birthdays are about, And the day’s no…… Continue reading Pre birthday blues.

Challenging. Autisms favourite!

Challenging. That is the word of the day. My day. Challenging. Every, single little thing has been a challenge. My girl is super anxious and teetering on the edge of a meltdown but I cannot work out why. Maybe because she has been ill? Maybe because I am ill? Maybe because school is back on?…… Continue reading Challenging. Autisms favourite!

Autism, siblings, and a little pup.

Having a child with Autism can be hard. Hard to get people to understand. Hard to get people to accept. Having a child with Autism and a neurotypical “normal” child can make things harder. Harder to get people to understand. Harder to get people to accept. Harder because the effects on the sibling are enormous.…… Continue reading Autism, siblings, and a little pup.