I just want to be a Mum.

If I knew then, what I knew now, Would that make me a better Mum somehow? If I knew the diagnosis, before she was born, If I could have, possibly, been warned. Not warned of the Autism, but of all the fights, Just to get access to her basic rights, An appointment, a specialist, the…… Continue reading I just want to be a Mum.

Amazing Autism sibling.

My boy. I adore the very ground he walks on. He is my calm in the storm. The light in my dark days. My hug in a fight. He is 10. Only 10 years old and he is the person I turn to. His 12 year old sister has Autism and a list of physical…… Continue reading Amazing Autism sibling.

Autism babysitter.

Looking for a babysitter for my child with Autism! Must have some understanding of Autism. Must be able to remain calm and confident. Must be extremely patient. Must be hands on. Must allow for unpredictibility. Must not be tired as cannot guarantee the child will sleep. Must be able to cope with meltdowns. Must expect…… Continue reading Autism babysitter.

The perfect Autism parent.

I don’t know what just happened. One minute all was calm, the next minute a scene of utter confusion. I stare on like a rabbit in the headlights. Shocked, panicked, scared. I can’t move. I daren’t move. I don’t know what to do. It came from nowhere. I want to calm my child but my…… Continue reading The perfect Autism parent.

This is me…overprotective Mum.

Overprotective Mum. When you look at me, what do you see? An overprotective Mum, probably, In fact I know that you do, I’ve heard it said, But think of me like this instead; My child has problems that you cannot see, Conditions called hidden disabilities, I may always have to be at her side, She…… Continue reading This is me…overprotective Mum.

Who am I?

I have published this before, but it still a question I struggle with daily. Am I a stay at home mum or a parent carer? ….or both? Where does it differ? When does one move on to the other? It is complicated and hard to understand. I am a stay at home Mum. I am…… Continue reading Who am I?

Reach out. Carers week.

Dear Autism parents and carers, It is carers week, an annual campaign to raise awareness of caring and highlight the difficulties faced. The biggest difficulty all carers face is talking about the reality of their situations. No one likes to talk about the negatives. Scrolling through my social media posts these past few days I…… Continue reading Reach out. Carers week.