Lonely at Christmas.

Lonely at Christmas. At this time of year I start to feel lonely. I see photos of people having fun at Christmas parties on social media. I see pictures of people having friends over for a chat and glass of wine. I see get togethers and coffee dates. I feel lonely…….and envious. We can’t do…… Continue reading Lonely at Christmas.

No Elf on our shelf.

Why I don’t do Elf on the Shelf. Tomorrow is the big day. I know for many families this is tradition. I know many families have a lot of fun and joy in doing it, but for us, it’s not to be. Imagine this. My girl at home. A place where she feels safe, a…… Continue reading No Elf on our shelf.

Discipline and Autism.

Discipline and Autism. It has been a hard week. Not with Autism, but with judgements. Judgements and comments. I received a message, this was part of it. “….seeing *****’s behaviour every morning and seeing no discipline” A message that tore another layer of my breaking heart. It isn’t the first time someone has said this,…… Continue reading Discipline and Autism.

School, an emotional journey.

Stressed. Won’t get dressed. Restless. Won’t eat breakfast. Fearful. Shouting and tearful. Scared. Won’t let me brush her hair. Panics. Hits and kicks. Confused. Tooth brushing refused. Angry. Complaining of being hungry. Bored. Instructions ignored. Withdrawn. Agrees to put clothes on. Grumpy. Uniform feels lumpy. Frustration. Says no to medication. Rude. Shouts for food. Angry.…… Continue reading School, an emotional journey.

Independance.

Whilst out walking the puppy this evening I saw two 9 year old girls out playing. I was shocked mostly because it was dark outside, but also because they were alone. My over anxious mind then started asking me questions. Should I be allowing my girl out to play? Should I be giving her more…… Continue reading Independance.

Rules….change.

Just when I find something that works it all goes bottoms up. We had a routine, a goal, something to work towards, and now we are unable to do it. It is the rules, it is health and safety, blah blah blah….., yes I know, you have to follow them. I understand that, I respect…… Continue reading Rules….change.

Anxiety.

It gets too much. It eats me up. It swallows me whole and there is no way out. I live, eat, and sleep Autism. I am controlled by Autism, by its anxiety. My life is no longer my own. I am angry. I let it get to this point. I let it control everything. I…… Continue reading Anxiety.