What a day!

The dentist. The place where my girl is at her most vulnerable, the place she hates more than anywhere else. Today we were there for an appointment for my boy. “Take my girl, show her that it isn’t a place to fear” …a logical thought process….or so I thought. Here is proof that I still…… Continue reading What a day!

Proud Mum!

Just when you start to sink in a sea of negativity, someone comes along and throws you a life line and you remember why you have been tredding water for so long. There are alays positives. ALWAYS. Even when all you can see is black, there is always a rainbow shining for you somewhere. Even…… Continue reading Proud Mum!

The Grumposaurus Rex 

The Grumposaurus Rex. Today we had a visit from the Grumposaurus Rex, It stomped around the house all day with Grumposaurus steps, It growled, it roared, it snapped its teeth, it jabbed us with its claws, It ran through rooms, it kicked the walls, it rattled all the doors. Grumposaurus comes around on every Sunday…… Continue reading The Grumposaurus Rex 

The puppy.

It has gone past being a co-incidence now, and the novelty is certainly not wearing off. It has been 4 weeks since Domino has come home and we have seen so many improvements in my girl! The puppy is not a miracle cure and is never going to take the Autism away, but she is…… Continue reading The puppy.

Whose fault?

Whose fault? Autism is born, it is not made, There isn’t anything to blame, You said its my fault for giving the MMR, But the Dr was jailed for those claims. I am not the reason, it was always there, My ‘bad’ parenting is not the cause, You tell me to stand my ground more…… Continue reading Whose fault?

Super powers.

“If I had a super power I would put my hands in my head and pull out the words like bricks and throw them at people or fire them out like a nerf gun.” This was my girls response when I asked her what super power she could choose. Expecting her to say invisibility, flying,…… Continue reading Super powers.

Anxiety..

Gnawing. Destroying. Damaging. Poisoning. Spoiling. Eroding. Wrecking. Shocking. Saddening. Consuming. Disturbing. Horrifying. Panicking. Upsetting. Worrying. Threatening. ……..Anxiety. Feeling so empty yet feeling so full of emotions. Nibbling….biting….chewing….gnawing….eating away. Constantly burrowing, crawling under your skin. There. Always there.