Alternative Christmas!

This year I wonder if it would be easier for me, To load up a world and make a Minecraft Christmas tree, With glowstone for lights and spiderweb tinsel, And spawn creepers and villagers with which to mingle. To make presents with wool blocks in a biome with snow, To make them all colourful and…… Continue reading Alternative Christmas!

Waiting for Christmas…

My Facebook feed is full of Christmas Trees. Beautifully decorated trees. It has started. The countdown to Christmas. It started really early this year, but our tree only went up today. Christmas. The best time of the year for my boy. I love it…..I loved it. It is the hardest for my girl. The waiting.…… Continue reading Waiting for Christmas…

It’s got me…

Sat with the children tonight I laughed. I haven’t laughed for so long, I hadn’t even realised how miserable I have been. Home has been so hard recently that I have neglected myself, physically and emotionally. I feel emotionless, like I feel everything so much that I now feel nothing. All of my feelings are…… Continue reading It’s got me…

Autism. I just don’t know.

Autism. I don’t know, and my anxiety feeds off this. The not knowing…. The not understanding… Only knowing what you have read and researched, Encountering behaviours that you don’t understand the origin of. Never understanding what you have experienced. Will we ever know…..fully? Will we ever understand…..completely? About Autism? Will we ever fully understand Autism?…… Continue reading Autism. I just don’t know.

Sshhh!

Ssshhhh! Don’t move, don’t cough, don’t sneeze, don’t scratch an itch and breathe very quietly! My girl is asleep and I would like it to stay that way…. ….pretty please. 4 nights of barely any sleep and we are all absolutely exhausted….except my girl of course! She can keep going whilst the rest of us…… Continue reading Sshhh!

Schools out for summer.

I always feel so happy about the school holidays…..well, what I mean is I always want to feel happy. I imagine them to be wonderful weeks of outings and fun. What I know is different. When they begin, reality kicks in. And all I feel is fear. There is very little to take my mind…… Continue reading Schools out for summer.

Autism and the heatwave.

Many people with Autism have difficulties processing sensory information. They have difficulties processing the information correctly. The information gets lost, or diverted the wrong way, causing problems with sensitivity. It can change, and fluctuate, between being over sensitive, under sensitive, or both at the same time. When a person struggles to process sensory information, they…… Continue reading Autism and the heatwave.