Sshhh!

Ssshhhh! Don’t move, don’t cough, don’t sneeze, don’t scratch an itch and breathe very quietly! My girl is asleep and I would like it to stay that way…. ….pretty please. 4 nights of barely any sleep and we are all absolutely exhausted….except my girl of course! She can keep going whilst the rest of us…… Continue reading Sshhh!

Lost.

Somenights I want to sit and write all of my thoughts and feelings, but it is just to awful to put into words. I want to write what it has really been like today, but I get scared that I will be judged. I want to get these jumbled feelings flying around my head on…… Continue reading Lost.

Fed up.

I don’t hate Autism…. ….but I don’t always like it. I don’t like the way I don’t understand it. I don’t like the way I can’t see the world through its’ eyes. I don’t like the anxiety and fustration. I don’t like the meltdowns and violence. I don’t like the way it hurts me. I…… Continue reading Fed up.

Sports Day.

It is my girls sports day soon and today she told me she didn’t want me to be there. Not directly of course, she has not quite reached the level of communication where she can just say that. Instead I asked her if I could come and watch. She replied ‘No’, and growled. Whilst 99%…… Continue reading Sports Day.

Autism cannot lie!

My girl cannot tell a lie. Many autistic individuals are the same. They say it how it is. A good thing you might think? …..try playing hide and seek with them!! My girl has been known to try and lie but she cannot again lie in her response. For example; “Did you eat the biscuit?”…… Continue reading Autism cannot lie!

Autism babysitter.

Looking for a babysitter for my child with Autism! Must have some understanding of Autism. Must be able to remain calm and confident. Must be extremely patient. Must be hands on. Must allow for unpredictibility. Must not be tired as cannot guarantee the child will sleep. Must be able to cope with meltdowns. Must expect…… Continue reading Autism babysitter.

So very tired.

I’m tired of always having to fight, I’m tired of being the one to put things right, I’m tired of always having to explain, I’m tired of repeating myself over again, I’m tired of teaching people who should know better, I’m tired of writing emails and letters, I’m tired of my words falling on deaf…… Continue reading So very tired.