Somenights I want to sit and write all of my thoughts and feelings, but it is just to awful to put into words. I want to write what it has really been like today, but I get scared that I will be judged. I want to get these jumbled feelings flying around my head on…… Continue reading Lost.
I have published this before, but it still a question I struggle with daily. Am I a stay at home mum or a parent carer? ….or both? Where does it differ? When does one move on to the other? It is complicated and hard to understand. I am a stay at home Mum. I am…… Continue reading Who am I?
This week is Mental Health Awareness week. Research has found that parents of Autistic children are twice as likely to suffer from a psychiatric illness. I do. A few years ago I had an emotional breakdown. I hid myself away, I was ashamed…. ….but now I stand proud with all the other sufferers, not embarrassed…… Continue reading It’s ok to not be ok.
Depression. From the deepest hole of darkness, I look up to see the light, My feet are tethered to the ground, By anxiety and fright, Depressions’ got a grip on me, I fear it’ll never let go, The space is growing darker, As the evil demon grows. In the deepest hole of darkness, The light…… Continue reading Depression.
Am I the parent I thought I would be? I think about this alot. I thought I would be so different…. …..but I’m not. I think we all do it. We all think, for example, we won’t give our children sweets, they won’t be allowed screen time, they will in bed by 7pm every night;…… Continue reading Expectations of parenting.
I have had days where I have stood in the shower crying so hard that I didn’t know if I was washing with tears or water. I’ve watched in the mirror as my laughter lines grow, as ironically, my laughter dies. I have sat in the night, cowering, watching my shadow. I have made rabbits…… Continue reading Dark days.
Did you know that there are around 700,000 people on the Autism Spectrum in the UK? That is more than 1 in 100….. ….yet I still find myself having to justify my childs differences in public. My child is 1 person with Autism. That leaves 699,999 other people, and/or their carers, having to do the…… Continue reading Autism and the other 699,999.