When I look in the mirror.

When I looked in the mirror as a little girl, I thought I would grow up and conquer the world, I’d get married, have children and have lots of money, I’d have a big house and live somewhere sunny. When I looked in the mirror as a girl in my teens, My thoughts were of…… Continue reading When I look in the mirror.

Prisoner.

I feel like a prisoner. Being held hostage by Autism; by anxiety. Enclosed in a house with no way out, locked windows and doors. Curtains drawn to avoid the bright sunlight and the shadows of the unknown. Dressed in a uniform dictated by my captor; by sensory processing problems. Clothes that are soft and loose.…… Continue reading Prisoner.

Would magic help? 

If I took half of a whisker from a wise old cat, If I took a strand of string from an old man’s hat, If I took a tear from a baby crying with laughter, If I took the giggles from the sound of toddler chatter, If I added it to the showers that come…… Continue reading Would magic help? 

A visit from Fred.

A story I wrote last year aimed at children to highlight Autism. A visit from Fred. An alien called Fred had a brilliant idea, One night as he thought up a mission, I’ll go down to earth and find out about, The strange thing I’ve heard called Autism. So Fred put his socks on, he…… Continue reading A visit from Fred.

Reflecting..

There are days I stand back and look back over the last 12 years and realise how much things have changed. Days where I reflect and look back on the people who walked out of my life when I needed them the most. There are days when I miss them, then there are days where…… Continue reading Reflecting..

Masking.

My girl masks her Autism at school. This means she is able to hide the fact she has Autism, usually by imitating her peers. She makes herself fit in. She masks to become ‘normal’ Masking is a common trait amongst girls with Autism, perhaps explaining the gender gap in the ratio of male:female diagnosis. The…… Continue reading Masking.

Middleness?

Middleness. Is this a thing? Is this why we have to fight for absolutely everything? Because she doesn’t have severe Autism, because she masks in school, because she conforms to school rules, because she is performing at average levels with her peers, this makes her ok? Is middleness nothing? Does her Autism mean nothing? Is…… Continue reading Middleness?