Autism. It is all my fault.

Autism… …..it is all my fault. My baby wasn’t planned. I thought I couldn’t get pregnant. I was Anorexic and Bulimic. I wouldn’t eat for days and then I would binge and vomit. …..it is all my fault. I didn’t eat properly when I was pregnant. I worked 12.5 hour shifts where I was on…… Continue reading Autism. It is all my fault.

Fighting for what we NEED.

To whom it may concern, The fight. Will it ever end? Why do we have to fight for everything? Why does it take so long? It is draining, frustrating, relentless. But we don’t stop fighting. We can’t. We won’t. Special needs parenting is a whole different lifestyle. We haven’t chosen this lifestyle. We didn’t ask…… Continue reading Fighting for what we NEED.

If everything was orange….

If everything was orange, Or everything was green, You’d think the world we live in now Was the strangest thing you’d seen. Imagine it all one colour, Every single thing you see, The leaves, the grass, the houses, the sky, Even you and me. You’d want to have something different, To have shoes or lips…… Continue reading If everything was orange….

Dear the future.

Dear the future. I see you there, lurking. I hear you calling out. I see your shadows following me with every tick of the second hand. I know you are going to get me. I know the future will come. But, future, I am scared. I am terrified of what you will bring to my…… Continue reading Dear the future.

Complaint, Our Autism Mum.

What do you do when you need to complain about something……but you feel bad doing it? Bad because you like the place. Bad because you like the people. Bad because you don’t want then to dislike you. Bad because you feel guilty. Crazy isn’t it? I feel guilty submitting a complaint! I have good reason,…… Continue reading Complaint, Our Autism Mum.

Autism and Safety.

Safety. We all have concerns about our childs’ safety, we all worry. We all know what our children are capable of. We do our best to keep our children safe, and teach them how to keep themselves safe. What would you do if you had to send your child somewhere everyday where you no that…… Continue reading Autism and Safety.