The tornado of negative feelings that has carried me through this week has finally let me go. Reality got me out of there. Remembering that it is not all bad, seeing that it is not all bad. My girl, the positivity I needed to exit the constant spin of feeling a failure. As the whirlwind…… Continue reading Saved!

Heavy heart.

In a world full of sadness I lead with a heavy heart. A head full of ‘what ifs’ and ‘whens’. Tv, radio, social media full of stories of innocent people losing their lives. It is heart breaking. It physically hurts my heart. My girl came home from school to see a dead Blackbird in our…… Continue reading Heavy heart.

Mixed emotions.

What if you didn’t know the difference between love and hate? How would life be? Would everyone get on? Would there be world peace? It is entirely possible for you to love someone you hate. It is entirely possible to hate someone you love. How is that? How can that be? It’s those little things…… Continue reading Mixed emotions.

Daisy Chain.

We’ll make a crown of daisies, we’ll thread them through your hair, We’ll take each little flower and handle it with care, They’re all a little different, no two flower heads the same, But they all will fit together in our little daisy chain. We’ll place that crown of daisies, and say that you’re the…… Continue reading Daisy Chain.

Time for me.

Out to the beach is where I go, To watch the tide as it ebbs and flows, To tell my secrets to the sea, Time alone, just for me. Out to walk along the sand, To watch the waves lap the land, To cry my tears into the swell, Watch them land on washed up…… Continue reading Time for me.

Meltdown; the way it feels.

Up and then down, Around and around, It spins, we spin, It stops. Pause. Down and down, Aggression is found, It kicks, it bites, It stops. Pause. The reasons are lost, Why it started is forgot, It screams, it shouts, It stops. Pause. The rage is inside, We are holding it down, It fights and…… Continue reading Meltdown; the way it feels.

Challenging behaviour.

Challenging behaviour. Part of my life. Part of Our Autisms life…. ….a horrible, horrible part. Challenging behaviour can be physical violence, but it generally covers all behaviour that have a negative impact on the individual or their family. People don’t talk about it. Not neccesarily because we are embarassed or ashamed, but because it is…… Continue reading Challenging behaviour.