Emotional emotions.

That feeling of loneliness, but you are surrounded by people. That feeling of stress, but you have a smile on your face. That feeling of failure, but you pretend everything is fine. That feeling you need to talk, but you don’t want to be judged. That feeling you should be ok, but you really are…… Continue reading Emotional emotions.

Almost 13!

Pre birthday blues. I wish I could tell her…. That her birthday is nothing to fear, That in the morning it will be here, And the worry she feels will fade away. I wish I could tell her…. As I hear her shout, tears leaking out, That anxiety is not what birthdays are about, And…… Continue reading Almost 13!

Autism. Parent anxiety.

I am an anxious mess. Is it just me who thinks all they ever say is negative things about their child? I don’t mean to, but I know that is what I do. It is not that there aren’t any positives, there are, so why am I this way? My child doesn’t like praise, hates…… Continue reading Autism. Parent anxiety.

Happy New Year.

Happy New Year! Today is 2019. Tomorrow is 2020. A simple concept for you and I, Not a simple concept for My Girl. Imagine not having a good sense of time. Imagine not being to tell how long 5 minutes is. How long a day is. A week. A month…….a year. Then imagine me telling…… Continue reading Happy New Year.

Not the most wonderful time of the year.

I am done with December. I am done with meltdowns. I am done with verbal abuse and the violence. I am done with Christmas and the anxiety and stress that it brings. Next year I am skipping a month. I know you are going to say she can’t help it. I know you will say…… Continue reading Not the most wonderful time of the year.

Autism, NOT bad parenting.

I have never bitten my child……but my child bites me. I have never hit or kicked my child……but my child does it to me. I have only said a few swear words in front of my child……but my child knows every single swear word out there. I have never had a meltdown in public with…… Continue reading Autism, NOT bad parenting.

Mums on benefits

I have read a few posts on social media about Mums on benefits….you know the ones…. So here it is. Lets talk about being an Autism Mum. The truth I am a stay at home mum. On benefits. I also am a qualified paediatric nurse. I went to college for 3 years then university for…… Continue reading Mums on benefits