Autism, NOT bad parenting.

I have never bitten my child……but my child bites me. I have never hit or kicked my child……but my child does it to me. I have only said a few swear words in front of my child……but my child knows every single swear word out there. I have never had a meltdown in public with…… Continue reading Autism, NOT bad parenting.

Mums on benefits

I have read a few posts on social media about Mums on benefits….you know the ones…. So here it is. Lets talk about being an Autism Mum. The truth I am a stay at home mum. On benefits. I also am a qualified paediatric nurse. I went to college for 3 years then university for…… Continue reading Mums on benefits

Emotion help?!

Does any one elses child absolutely refuse to say, or be told they are, any of the emotion words? We are struggling so much as they come up in everyday sentances and then my girl gets fixated and angry about the word we used. Tonight it is the ‘t’ word. A daddy long legs flew…… Continue reading Emotion help?!

The eyes can’t tell.

The more time I spend trying to analyse my girls behaviour, the clearer it becomes. I begin to see her deep down below the swirls of fustration and confusion. I see her lost eyes shining through the murky fog. I hear her constant questions buzzing trying to get my attention. I feel her anger as…… Continue reading The eyes can’t tell.

Autism. I just don’t know.

Autism. I don’t know, and my anxiety feeds off this. The not knowing…. The not understanding… Only knowing what you have read and researched, Encountering behaviours that you don’t understand the origin of. Never understanding what you have experienced. Will we ever know…..fully? Will we ever understand…..completely? About Autism? Will we ever fully understand Autism?…… Continue reading Autism. I just don’t know.

This was a hard day.

I want to write about all the good stuff. I want to tell you what makes Autism amazing. I want to tell you all the positive things that will make you keep reading… …but I can’t. Not today anyway. Today has been horrendous. There have been near constant meltdowns. I haven’t been able to stop…… Continue reading This was a hard day.

The Darkness.

“I want to die”. Imagine hearing your child say that. Imagine seeing your child trying to climb out of a window. Imagine them screaming and begging us to let them fall. Imagine them shouting, over and over, sobbing….begging…to let them die. Imagine all this happening when your child has limited understanding of what dying means.…… Continue reading The Darkness.