Alternative Christmas!

This year I wonder if it would be easier for me, To load up a world and make a Minecraft Christmas tree, With glowstone for lights and spiderweb tinsel, And spawn creepers and villagers with which to mingle. To make presents with wool blocks in a biome with snow, To make them all colourful and…… Continue reading Alternative Christmas!

The smell….

Having Autism, my girl is not very good at picking up social cues. She has no concern about what people think about her. She finds it difficult to relate an action to a consequence. Recently this has become a slight problem….especially since hormones have made their presence known! Smell. That is what I am talking…… Continue reading The smell….

Lonely Autism…

I don’t even know what I want to say. I just want to talk….. I just want someone to listen. ….because in real life there isn’t always someone there. My reality is that I am mostly alone. People upped and left when my girl got her diagnosis. Scared of how to react, what to say…… Continue reading Lonely Autism…

A letter to my neighbours.

Dear neighbours, I sit here crying not knowing what to say as sorry never seems enough. I don’t know what I am even apologising for, I just feel the need to explain. To explain away the noise, the shouting, the endless nights we have kept you awake. My silent tears fall as the chaos around…… Continue reading A letter to my neighbours.

The guilt.

Perhaps it is wrong to admit it. Perhaps I shouldn’t even say it. The guilt eats me up inside every time I send her. …but we need it. Right? Ok. Here goes. Deep breath….. We had a lovely evening whilst my girl was at respite. There. Done. Said. Why do I feel so bad even…… Continue reading The guilt.

Autism cannot lie!

My girl cannot tell a lie. Many autistic individuals are the same. They say it how it is. A good thing you might think? …..try playing hide and seek with them!! My girl has been known to try and lie but she cannot again lie in her response. For example; “Did you eat the biscuit?”…… Continue reading Autism cannot lie!

Autism and birthday parties.

Birthday parties. In her infant and junior school years my girl attended a mainstream school. For years I complained as she never got invited to parties. Now in her specialist placement, my girl received an invite…. ….what followed made me rethink my earlier thoughts, and come to the realisation that perhaps not getting invited was…… Continue reading Autism and birthday parties.