Prisoner.

I feel like a prisoner. Being held hostage by Autism; by anxiety. Enclosed in a house with no way out, locked windows and doors. Curtains drawn to avoid the bright sunlight and the shadows of the unknown. Dressed in a uniform dictated by my captor; by sensory processing problems. Clothes that are soft and loose.…… Continue reading Prisoner.

Our Autism Dad. Our superhero.

Dads of Autism. Autism Dads. The unsung heros. The hidden saviours.    Autism mums have it easier to some degree. There is more support out there for them, and lets face it, men are less likely to ask for it anyway. Men are less likely to admit their feelings, therefore less likely to admit they need…… Continue reading Our Autism Dad. Our superhero.

Parent relationships.

Being parents is hard. Being parents of a child with additional needs is hard. To be in a relationship whilst being a carer takes a lot of patience… …patience that not all relationships have. Parenting a child with additional needs takes an awful lot of your time. As a result you don’t get to spend…… Continue reading Parent relationships.

Coping?

Coping. Am I? Is anyone? Why is not coping seen as a weakness? At the moment I don’t feel like I am coping, but I am. The dictionary defines coping as “to face and deal with responsibilities” and “to deal successfully with a difficult situation”. Which I do…..because I have to. It is part of…… Continue reading Coping?

Saved!

The tornado of negative feelings that has carried me through this week has finally let me go. Reality got me out of there. Remembering that it is not all bad, seeing that it is not all bad. My girl, the positivity I needed to exit the constant spin of feeling a failure. As the whirlwind…… Continue reading Saved!

I’m tired.

I’m tired of always having to fight, I’m tired of being the one to put things right, I’m tired of always having to explain, I’m tired of repeating myself over again, I’m tired of teaching people who should know better, I’m tired of writing emails and letters, I’m tired of my words falling on deaf…… Continue reading I’m tired.

Middleness?

Middleness. Is this a thing? Is this why we have to fight for absolutely everything? Because she doesn’t have severe Autism, because she masks in school, because she conforms to school rules, because she is performing at average levels with her peers, this makes her ok? Is middleness nothing? Does her Autism mean nothing? Is…… Continue reading Middleness?