Make sense of the senses.

The senses. Our senses. Something I take for granted, I expect them to work. What if they don’t? What if they are too sensitive? What if they are not sensitive enough? What if the senses were so muddled that they couldn’t do their job properly? Imagine how hard it would be too process all those…… Continue reading Make sense of the senses.

Who is she?

Autism Myth: people with Autism lack imagination and the ability to play. Autism Fact: People with Autism typically possess vivid, creative and unique imaginations. “Here, in this small, enclosed space, my girl will take you to the last wilderness and show you the planet and its’ wildlife as you have never seen it before.” Have…… Continue reading Who is she?

Different.

If you had asked me, 10 years ago, to explain Autism to you, I wouldn’t have had a clue. I haven’t always known about Autism. I wasn’t born knowing about Autism. I have been taught. By my child. When we thought my girl may have Autism I read all the books I could find. I…… Continue reading Different.

Who has the disability?

Hidden disabilities. Are they? I mean, once we understand the disability, is it really hidden? I could probably pick out a child on the spectrum because I know……I understand. To the public yes it is hidden. Not the disability. The diagnosis. The understanding of the diagnosis. Not so much hidden, but misunderstood. My girl doesn’t…… Continue reading Who has the disability?

Changed?

My girl has changed. Well that’s what it looks like. She hasn’t of course, she is just being herself after years of trying to fit in. I had never noticed how hard my girl had had to work in mainstream school. Not the academic side of it, but the social and emotional aspect of it.…… Continue reading Changed?

Urgh….

You’d think I would feel happy and relaxed. My girl is enjoying school and going in with no problem. She is coming home happier and meltdowns are less intense. I should feel energised, refreshed….. ….but I just feel…..urgh. 11 years of stress, sleepless nights and being on alert 24/7 has left me drained. 8 years…… Continue reading Urgh….

Suffering from Autism?

I suffer from a lot of things. Sleep deprivation, exhaustion, headaches, migraines, joint pains, mood swings, depression, anxiety, guilt….so much guilt. I don’t suffer from Autism. I suffer with the consequences of not being in a position to understand my child. But not Autism. I don’t ever wake up and dread Autism. I don’t ever…… Continue reading Suffering from Autism?