Should I change?

Sometimes I wonder what I am doing. I lay myself bare, I lay my girl bare. I don’t hold back, I say it as it is. Am I doing the wrong thing? I do it for a reason. I want people to see how it really is. Not just all the positives, but the frightenong…… Continue reading Should I change?

Saved!

The tornado of negative feelings that has carried me through this week has finally let me go. Reality got me out of there. Remembering that it is not all bad, seeing that it is not all bad. My girl, the positivity I needed to exit the constant spin of feeling a failure. As the whirlwind…… Continue reading Saved!

To Daddy.

A thank you note to ‘Our Autism’ Dad. Thank you for always being there for us. Always. No matter what. Thank you for going to work on very little sleep to support your family. Thank you for being there for me in the early hours when all I want to do is go to bed.…… Continue reading To Daddy.

The truth about being an Autism Mum.

Sometimes I just need to rant…..sorry. So lets talk about being an Autism Mum. The truth. I read a facebook status about Mums on benefits….you know the ones…. So here it is. I am a stay at home mum. On benefits. I also am a qualified paediatric nurse. I went to college for 3 years…… Continue reading The truth about being an Autism Mum.

Woe be me.

Today has been hard. Really hard. The change in routine due to no school and our upcoming holiday has introduced some very challenging behaviours. It’s a viscous cycle for me. ….for me. The selfish one. The one who feels the need to talk about how Autism is hard for me….. I live in a loop.…… Continue reading Woe be me.

The pain of school.

Hooray for half term!! 1 whole week of no school! 1 whole week of no school refusals! My 10 year old girl refuses school every single day. She is late for school every single day. I try and try, so hard, to get her in, but it is so, so hard. What do you imagine…… Continue reading The pain of school.

Manchester.

I am not scared of the world anymore……I am completely terrified. Race, religion, money, is it worth sacrificing innocent lifes for? Our prinicipal emotions of love and hate have reached the extremes, boundaries blurred, hate turning into love, the love of another creating hate amongst the human race. Hate will never win. Hate will make…… Continue reading Manchester.