Bleurgh.

Bleurgh…. You know that feeling when you can’t quite describe how you feel. When all you want to do is drink wine and eat chocolate…….except you are too tired to do either. Bleurgh…. You know when the weekend is over and you need to make plans for the week ahead. When you have school clothes…… Continue reading Bleurgh.

The Grumposaurus Rex 

The Grumposaurus Rex. Today we had a visit from the Grumposaurus Rex, It stomped around the house all day with Grumposaurus steps, It growled, it roared, it snapped its teeth, it jabbed us with its claws, It ran through rooms, it kicked the walls, it rattled all the doors. Grumposaurus comes around on every Sunday…… Continue reading The Grumposaurus Rex 

She has a name.

She is the same, She has a name, It is not Autism, She has that condition. It doesn’t define her, It does explain her, She still can play, In a different way, She still wants friends, With time she can spend, She wants invites to birthdays, She won’t ruin your day, She may seem a…… Continue reading She has a name.

Whose fault?

Whose fault? Autism is born, it is not made, There isn’t anything to blame, You said its my fault for giving the MMR, But the Dr was jailed for those claims. I am not the reason, it was always there, My ‘bad’ parenting is not the cause, You tell me to stand my ground more…… Continue reading Whose fault?

My little rainbow.

Because I made you, I thought I’d know just what to do, That I would understand you, That love would get us through. Because you grew in me, I thought I would know everything, I didn’t know what life would bring, But I didn’t know anything. Because I didn’t understand, Life wasn’t going as I…… Continue reading My little rainbow.

When I’m gone.

I watch you walk out the door, And I find myself asking, A question I have never asked before, My heart beats faster, As reality creeps in, Who will be there for you when I’m gone? That’s something I don’t know, Because I have not wanted to think, Of what will happen when I go.…… Continue reading When I’m gone.

A hidden disability.

Do I look different? What does Autism look like? It has two eyes and a nose. What else can you see, It has ten fingers and toes. Has it got any legs? Yes, two ankles and two knees, Is it green and hairy? No it looks like you and me. It must look a bit…… Continue reading A hidden disability.