Pre birthday blues.

I wish I could tell her…. That her birthday is nothing to fear, That in the morning it will be here, And the worry she feels will fade away. I wish I could tell her…. As I hear her shout, tears leaking out, That anxiety is not what birthdays are about, And the day’s no…… Continue reading Pre birthday blues.

It’s got me…

Anxiety. A horrible little parasite that burrows under your skin. It takes control. Everyday I watch it take hold of my girl. Everyday it breaks my heart. It hurts because I know exactly how she feels. I am Our Autism Mum, and I have an anxiety disorder. I am not ashamed about it. It is…… Continue reading It’s got me…

Been and gone.

Christmas Day has come and gone and I am so relieved. Relieved that it is over. I used to love Christmas, but now it fills me with dread. I worry how I can please everyone whilst keeping my girl happy. I worry how family and friends will perceive her behaviour. I worry about the gifts…… Continue reading Been and gone.

Keep it simple.

School has finished for the holidays but I don’t feel one bit Christmassy. These past few weeks have been so busy that time has just flown. My poor husband being poorly, and then my girl falling badly and dislocating her kneecap, has meant that all my attention has been focused on them. Poor Christmas has…… Continue reading Keep it simple.

The Spectrum.

No two people with Autism are the same, It is a spectrum of symptoms all under one name. Whilst all people share the same difficulties they face, The way it affects them is different in each case. Some people can talk, whilst some make no sounds, Whilst in a few people a healthy vocabulary can…… Continue reading The Spectrum.

Fireworks; a sensory nightmare.

The crowds are gathering, the grounds are full, There are people everywhere, So much noise from everyone chatting, The smell of hot dogs fills the air. The skys all dark, the crowds go still, The loud silence hurts my ears, No one has said what is happening next, I can’t speak, I’m frozen in fear.…… Continue reading Fireworks; a sensory nightmare.

Happy Halloween.

Happy Halloween from Our Autism! 🎃 My girl has been counting down the days until trick or treat day! She is always so excited about Halloween! Every year it takes me by complete suprise as I have never really been fond of celebrating it so I don’t make a fuss. I am one of those…… Continue reading Happy Halloween.