Just grumpy?

It might be just me getting older, but I feel like I cannot tolerate people anymore. It might be just because I have a child with a disability that not many people understand. It might be just because I have a child with a disability that people are aware of but don’t make the effort…… Continue reading Just grumpy?

Does our puppy hold the key?

Our puppy has opened up a part of my girl I have never seen. Does she have the key to Autisms secrets? Weighing only a tiny 1.3kg, and at the length of my hand, she has made a massive impact on our lives already. She has filled a hole we didn’t know we had. She…… Continue reading Does our puppy hold the key?

Start of the new school year.

What a start to the school year. I knew it would be hard. I temporarily forgot just how hard. I forgot how heartbreaking school mornings are. My girl did not sleep last night. At all. She has never been a good sleeper but on the nights anxiety reach their peak she can quite happily sit…… Continue reading Start of the new school year.

To whom it may concern.

To whom it may concern, 6 weeks school holidays…..what were you thinking? I am writing this at my wits end. I have had a very bad day and I feel that most of it is your fault. Please, ‘maker of the 6 week rule’, explain your reasons to me. You obviously do not have children.…… Continue reading To whom it may concern.

That creep , exhaustion.

I sit here on day 27 of the school holidays enveloped in exhaustion. A consuming, greedy, parasite creeping slowly as the days go on. It hasn’t been awful. It has (mostly) been calm… ….but that is what is exhausting. I have worked so hard to make it this way…. ..to keep it this way. My…… Continue reading That creep , exhaustion.

Tired. Tried.

Tried….Tired. Trying….Tiring. I don’t think it is a coincidence that those two words look and sound very similar. Today has been both. My girl has been trying today…. …mostly our patience. We are all tired. Holidays do that to us all. Tired because we can relax a little, or tired because we are out and…… Continue reading Tired. Tried.

The stress.

The stress. Pulling me, pushing me. Giving in, giving up? Screwed up face, jaw clenched tight. Waiting. Always waiting. For the storm to come, for the storm to pass. Exhaustion carrying my tired body. Mental exhaustion. Mind fatigue. Tears fall inwardly, they can’t see. Stoic face. Holding it all together. Whilst crumbling, inside I’m crumbling.…… Continue reading The stress.