Normal?

Normal? Right, I am just going to say it…. Today my girl has been normal, the day has been normal. Is that even something I can say? What does that mean anyway? Normal? It is such a weird word. Who defines normal? Who decides normal? What even is normal? I don’t know any normal people.…… Continue reading Normal?

Angry.

Argh…..!!! You know when you feel so angry that you need to shout, to scream!? School. Education. The system. I have had enough. I am not the professional. I have not had the training to be qualified. So how is it I can do their jobs better than them? How is it it that I…… Continue reading Angry.

I want never gets.

“I want never gets”. We have all heard it said, probably all said it.. ….only now as an adult do I realise how true it is. Never have I had so many wants until I had children. I want them to be happy. I want them to be healthy. I want them to have the…… Continue reading I want never gets.

My little rainbow.

Because I made you, I thought I’d know just what to do, That I would understand you, That love would get us through. Because you grew in me, I thought I would know everything, I didn’t know what life would bring, But I didn’t know anything. Because I didn’t understand, Life wasn’t going as I…… Continue reading My little rainbow.

When I’m gone.

I watch you walk out the door, And I find myself asking, A question I have never asked before, My heart beats faster, As reality creeps in, Who will be there for you when I’m gone? That’s something I don’t know, Because I have not wanted to think, Of what will happen when I go.…… Continue reading When I’m gone.

Stuff.

My head is so full of stuff. Stuff to do. Stuff to think about. Stuff I am worried about. Stuff I don’t need to think about. It is full. To bursting point. My head aches. Physical pain from storing stuff. The stuff all parents store, but then the extras having a child with additional needs…… Continue reading Stuff.

Will we ever understand?

To not know…. To not understand… To only know what you have read and researched, To only understand what you have experienced. Will we ever know…..fully? Will we ever understand…..completely? About Autism? To understand Autism? Life with Autism is one big learning curve. Autism is a big learning curve. No two children on the spectrum…… Continue reading Will we ever understand?