Just listen. An Autism journey poem.

It’s 2007 and I’m happy but crying, Not really sure what I have become, but I’m holding the baby, I am now a Mum, In the noisy room of the maternity ward, The air is sterile and clean, and the faces of crying mums and babies can be seen, And I’m feeling so old in…… Continue reading Just listen. An Autism journey poem.

6 years on from our Autism diagnosis.

6 years ago today my girl was officially diagnosed with Autism. I thought we had been given a magic key and that we would get all the help and support that we needed. I thought the diagnosis would change everything. In reality, it didn’t change anything. We knew she had Autism before we got the…… Continue reading 6 years on from our Autism diagnosis.

Support Groups, a poem.

Support Groups. When what’s holding you together is paper and string, When you’re stretched to the limit, your patience worn thin, When you’re asking and asking for things to be done, When your crying out for help and still getting none, When you’ve had a bad day and have nowhere to turn, When behaviours are…… Continue reading Support Groups, a poem.

Our Autism groundhog day.

Do you ever feel like you are being left behind? Friends move on, family members have their own families, people get jobs, have babies….. Me? I just stay me. Unemployed. With very few friends. Isolated and lonely. Standing still in a world that is moving too quickly around me. I am a carer. A stay…… Continue reading Our Autism groundhog day.

Help? Anywhere?

We are going through a rough patch with my girl at the moment. She is being so, so very challenging and controlling. Puberty arriving has not helped matters. This morning I was chatting to a Mum about it; offloading after a stressful morning. Her reply? “Ring Social Services and tell them you aren’t coping and…… Continue reading Help? Anywhere?

My little rainbow.

Because I made you, I thought I’d know just what to do, That I would understand you, That love would get us through. Because you grew in me, I thought I would know everything, I didn’t know what life would bring, But I didn’t know anything. Because I didn’t understand, Life wasn’t going as I…… Continue reading My little rainbow.

Pupdate.

Our Puppy, Domino, has been with us for 12 days. 12 days of bonding, 12 days of playing, 12 days of seeing tiny things I have never seen before in my girl. Tiny little recognitions of emotions, of feelings and empathy. The puppy has become my girls teacher. Domino is, very slowly, leading my girl…… Continue reading Pupdate.