So proud.

So proud. So exhausted… ….but more proud! 3 nights of next to no sleep. Huge meltdowns. Stimming. Repeating the same thing over and over. Anxiety, huge anxiety. But…. …..she did it!! Tonight was the school xmas fayre. Being in the last year of primary meant the children were given more responsibility. They were given their…… Continue reading So proud.

Lonely at Christmas.

Lonely at Christmas. At this time of year I start to feel lonely. I see photos of people having fun at Christmas parties on social media. I see pictures of people having friends over for a chat and glass of wine. I see get togethers and coffee dates. I feel lonely…….and envious. We can’t do…… Continue reading Lonely at Christmas.

Help? Anywhere?

We are going through a rough patch with my girl at the moment. She is being so, so very challenging and controlling. Puberty arriving has not helped matters. This morning I was chatting to a Mum about it; offloading after a stressful morning. Her reply? “Ring Social Services and tell them you aren’t coping and…… Continue reading Help? Anywhere?

Just grumpy?

It might be just me getting older, but I feel like I cannot tolerate people anymore. It might be just because I have a child with a disability that not many people understand. It might be just because I have a child with a disability that people are aware of but don’t make the effort…… Continue reading Just grumpy?

Proud Mum!

Just when you start to sink in a sea of negativity, someone comes along and throws you a life line and you remember why you have been tredding water for so long. There are alays positives. ALWAYS. Even when all you can see is black, there is always a rainbow shining for you somewhere. Even…… Continue reading Proud Mum!

To whom it may concern.

To whom it may concern, 6 weeks school holidays…..what were you thinking? I am writing this at my wits end. I have had a very bad day and I feel that most of it is your fault. Please, ‘maker of the 6 week rule’, explain your reasons to me. You obviously do not have children.…… Continue reading To whom it may concern.

That creep , exhaustion.

I sit here on day 27 of the school holidays enveloped in exhaustion. A consuming, greedy, parasite creeping slowly as the days go on. It hasn’t been awful. It has (mostly) been calm… ….but that is what is exhausting. I have worked so hard to make it this way…. ..to keep it this way. My…… Continue reading That creep , exhaustion.