Dark days.

I have had days where I have stood in the shower crying so hard that I didn’t know if I was washing with tears or water. I’ve watched in the mirror as my laughter lines grow, as ironically, my laughter dies. I have sat in the night, cowering, watching my shadow. I have made rabbits…… Continue reading Dark days.

Do you remember that girl?

So the good news? Well, actually, amazing news! Do you remember a girl who would refuse to go to school? Do you remember the girls Mum in utter despair at being reprimanded for her daughters late entry to school everyday? Do you remember a girl who used to have meltdowns daily, before and after school?…… Continue reading Do you remember that girl?

Autism Mums.

Autism Mums; a poem. When it is quiet and I get a moment alone, I think of my girl, how much she has grown, How far she has come in a short space of time, In the darkest of days, she is my sunshine. The visions I had when she was first diagnosed, How I…… Continue reading Autism Mums.

Autism. Anxiety. Parent and child.

Anxiety and Autism seem to go hand in hand. The world is a difficult, and unpredicatable, place to understand. It is a place where there are many rules and regualtions. It is a place where the rules and regulations differ everywhere you go. There is no consistent. Expected behaviour is different for each place you…… Continue reading Autism. Anxiety. Parent and child.

Our Autism Family.

If you want to be friends come on over, Accept us, please, just how we are, I know that our family is different, And the behaviours may look quite bizarre, Normal is not something we do here, We accept the differences we own, And instead of trying to hide them, They’re free to roam in…… Continue reading Our Autism Family.

Shouting and Autism.

Shouted at day in day out. Every minute of the day and the night. If I don’t answer her quick enough, if I don’t hear her……if I don’t know what she is thinking. It is her method of communication. And I know I am extremely lucky that she is verbal and able to communicate. But…..…… Continue reading Shouting and Autism.

In the shadows.

I have a son. My boy. A son I don’t often talk about. I do talk alot about how my boy lives in my girls shadow, but not about him. My boy is neurotypical but my girl has Autism and other disabilities. I have taken time to talk about how having a disabled sibling affects…… Continue reading In the shadows.