I was talking to a family member today about how hard Saturday was. His reply? “Why didn’t you ring and ask me to come over?” Why didn’t I? Before I had even had chance to think, “because it is embarassing” came out of my mouth… …because it is. Isn’t it? I am a mother of…… Continue reading Don’t be afraid to ask for help.
I want to write about all the good stuff. I want to tell you what makes Autism amazing. I want to tell you all the positive things that will make you keep reading… …but I can’t. Not today anyway. Today has been horrendous. There have been near constant meltdowns. I haven’t been able to stop…… Continue reading This was a hard day.
The first 2 days of school are over! My girl is smiling and routine has returned as if school was never finished. ….then there is me. *insert sad face* You’d think I would feel happy and relaxed. I feel sad and lonely. I miss having the children home, the chaos, the noise. My girl is…… Continue reading Post school holiday blues.
T’was the night before school in Our Autism house, Anxiety was affecting everyone, even my girls toy mouse, She’s in a bit of a state, but she does want to go, This school thing is scary, this is all I know; The school clothes are too itchy, she doesn’t want to do her hair, She…… Continue reading School tomorrow…
Just when you feel you are completely failing at being a Mother. When you feel you have not managed the holidays correctly. When you feel down and completely exhausted…. ….and then your child hands you a picture she has drawn…. ….that. ❤
Some days I look at my girl and wonder what her future holds. I think about whether she will be able to live independently. If she will marry, have a family. If her health problems will allow her to live her life as she wants to. Whether she will need her wheelchair forever. I wonder…… Continue reading Live for today.
I sit here on day, who knows, of the school holidays enveloped in exhaustion. A consuming, greedy, parasite creeping slowly as the days go on. It hasn’t been awful. It has, mostly, been calm… ….but that is what is exhausting. I have worked so hard to make it this way…. ..to keep it this way.…… Continue reading What day is it?