Urgh….

You’d think I would feel happy and relaxed. My girl is enjoying school and going in with no problem. She is coming home happier and meltdowns are less intense. I should feel energised, refreshed….. ….but I just feel…..urgh. 11 years of stress, sleepless nights and being on alert 24/7 has left me drained. 8 years…… Continue reading Urgh….

Is Autism scary?

Autism. That scary word. That scary condition. Scary? Only because we can’t ever fully understand it. My son is scared of the dark. He is frightened because he can’t see what is going to happen. ….just like Autism. I have lived and breathed Autism for 11 years of my girls life, and it still scares…… Continue reading Is Autism scary?

10 years!

It is Mr and Mrs ‘Our Autisms’ wedding anniversary today. We have been married for 10 years. …..and so much has happened in those 10 years! It has not been easy. I love my husband with 100% of my heart, but sometimes the stress, strain and sleep deprivation that comes with having a child with…… Continue reading 10 years!

Work?

“You can go back to work now your girl goes to school.” A sentance more than one person has said to me this week. I don’t like it. I don’t like the assumption that now my girl is going to school, that everything has magically changed. The truth is; my girl has not changed, she…… Continue reading Work?

School, siblings, guilt.

My girl is doing amazing in her new school. She is up and ready for the (very early) taxi every morning. She chats non stop about school when she gets home. She even told me that she did really well in a test she did today…. ….honestly it is like I have a different child!…… Continue reading School, siblings, guilt.

Our puppy, a year on.

A year ago today our lives changed. A year ago today our little puppy came home. I knew things would be different with a dog around the house. I knew life would be more busy. I knew training a puppy whilst watching my girl 24 hours a day may well have been impossible… ….but we…… Continue reading Our puppy, a year on.

1st day at secondary.

She did it! I remember my first day of secondary school. I remember being so scared and nervous. I remember lying awake with questions whizzing around my head and not knowing the answers. I didn’t know my way around, I didn’t know the teachers names, I didn’t know who was in my tutor group. My…… Continue reading 1st day at secondary.