Anxiety and Autism.

Anxiety and Autism seem to go hand in hand. The world is a difficult, and unpredicatable, place to understand. It is a place where there are many rules and regualtions. It is a place where the rules and regulations differ everywhere you go. There is no consistent. Expected behaviour is different for each place you…… Continue reading Anxiety and Autism.

“These children”

“These children.” “School get more money for taking these children.” ….The things you over hear. “These children”…. My girl is one of those children. Two families sat chatting in a drs waiting room, loudly I might add, about a disruptive child in school. A child who was shouting and making the teacher cross. A child…… Continue reading “These children”


11 years ago I was cradling my day old baby. Sniffing her bald little head I was imagining what the future may bring. I was looking forward to her first steps, her first word. Sitting in hospital I was thinking of our first night at home, her first bath…. …everything was going to be perfect.…… Continue reading 11!

Pre birthday blues.

I wish I could tell her…. That her birthday is nothing to fear, That in the morning it will be here, And the worry she feels will fade away. I wish I could tell her…. As I hear her shout, tears leaking out, That anxiety is not what birthdays are about, And the day’s no…… Continue reading Pre birthday blues.

Challenging. Autisms favourite!

Challenging. That is the word of the day. My day. Challenging. Every, single little thing has been a challenge. My girl is super anxious and teetering on the edge of a meltdown but I cannot work out why. Maybe because she has been ill? Maybe because I am ill? Maybe because school is back on?…… Continue reading Challenging. Autisms favourite!

Storm Meltdown.

When I am angry, I like to shout, It’s just the way my feelings come out. I say some things that are quite mean, I am brewing a storm; lets set the scene… My mood is foul, the skies turn black, The clouds are forming, there’s no way back, I bang and crash, my thunder’s…… Continue reading Storm Meltdown.

I love you for being you. An Autism poem.

Just a little baby, snuggled cosy on my chest, I promised I’d be there for you, to always try my best, To give you all my love, and guide you through the years, To join in with your giggles, and wipe away your tears. You cried and cried and cried and cried and didn’t sleep…… Continue reading I love you for being you. An Autism poem.